Uncertain......

Why does it have to be me.....well....having some stress here...work...family....personal life...anything else???? ya....one more thing....sick!!!

Recently...uncertain abt a lot of things...work....to work or not to work....thought of going back to studies...6 years back...i missed the god damn bloody chance of studying @ NAFA. Now thought of enrolling in again...but...is it a good time to go and study??? Or a bad time to find another job...?

Quite stuck up recently...1st thing 1st....work...WTF!!! Everybody in the company having their pay CUT?!?!?!?!?! Those who dun perform...get their pay "CUT" from 10% - 30%?!?!?!?!!?! WTF!!! Just the knnbccb thing!!! argh!!! thats bloody a lot....you know that...meaning to ask those who are poor or should i say...those who's so down on their luck in sales have to get cut like this??? Isnt that pathetic??

Imagine your pay is like 1K????? max out the 30% cut....what are you left with????? 700 bucks???? what are you gonna eat?? transport??? expenses??? 700 a mth??? $23.33 a day??
Imagine those older generations @ the production side?? argh....forget it...stress....stress from upper level....stress from clients....stress on "how am i gonna write my sales report every end of the week"?

2nd - family

my brother out of job....the youngest one going to police academy...dad...intend to quit job...cos of the people there giving him trouble like eyes are soring everywhere he goes cos he's doing a good job and boss praises him?? What the hell in this world those who backstab him and tok like sissies?? Bloody hell like old aunties...likes to spread rumours....MEN YOU KNOW!!! MEN!!! SPREAD RUMOURS LIKE AUNTIES!!! HEY!! Those MEN out there...if you think you arent good enough for job...afraid of losing to someone better than you, SCRAM OR JUST QUIT & GO!! WHY BOTHER TO TALK SO MUCH LIKE SISSIES???? I really dun understand...oh man...stress level is coming up...my sis-in-law...pregnant again?? 4th one coming up...end of this year...OMG 4 KIDS!!! though is tough taking care of them....(now the 3 devils @ home) but one good thng abt them is...whenever i reach home after work..once i see them...my stress are all gone...i think thats the kids ability to handle adults like us?? hahaha......my parents arent young too....sometimes...i feel useless to see them suffering this way...at this point of time...i should be giving them good times to relax....but time is not ripe yet for me...see what i can do to make up for the lost...

3rd - Personal life...

Whether to have a gf or not.....i think i'll still decide...now seriously...work stress...is giving me a lot of problem...i dun think any girls wants an unstable guy or should i say....MATERIALISTIC people??? hey come on....sometime is not why a guy doesnt have any money...cars....or whatever so...its just...he's time is not ripe yet...girls out there...dun think of finding a rich guy to have an easy life....yes...he can give you things you wanted on materials...but remember one thing...which i always believe in.....YOU GAIN SOMETHING.....YOU'LL LOSE SOMETHING VERY DEAR TO YOU...so girls out there...know your limits...what's the diff between you people in Singapore and the Chee Na women out there??? Answer............SAME???????? Just to encourage you girls out there....find someone who can really take good care of you...love you...when a guy does that...he really means it....he can give you whatever you want...and not materialistically.....

Uuhhhhhh.....too late...gonna catch some slp....too tired....thats all i have to say...my personal life...i think i know what to do...and what i want in my future relationship......