Hi hi...i'm back...on track as stated above....well...we( me & janet )..had sorted our problems...( hoped so )...there's a lot disagreements and arguments etc...she did things to spike me...as i scolded her using hurting words on her..well...what a weekend indeed....it didnt stop me from quarreling with her whenever i called her to settle our problems..well...to me...she just a young lady with little girl's mind who's just playful...heard her stories..her mom( decreased ) was very strict to her around 19-20 years old...only that when her parents were divorced...then her freedom starts...i know how she feels...i've been thru her stage..while i was her age...yes indeed...i was playful as well...but i mean...thats very wrong of her to use her freedom unwisely..
Everybody has their own freedom...i agreed...but use it for your own good...wisely..who wants to control who's freedom...nobody wants it...true enough...but my intentions for her is that her health...during the period when i'm not around..she's out everyday/ night..around 2plus midnight reached home...i'm just worried about her health...yes she drinks..but little bit...her looks is getting pale everyday i sees her..not hydrating herself...it hurts to see her like this...no boyfriend/girlfriend likes to see his/her spouse getting weak everyday..when a body system is going bad...you wont feel it...only your body does without your knowing...
She told me....i controlled her too much...but...have she thought of...why am i like this...why am i like that...i told her...whatever i do or did...is for her own good...i'll nv harm her...not even a single bit of intention at the back of my mind..dunno really will she appreciate what i'd done for her...i know when i'm angry.....all the frustrating words/sentences will come out....i only do that when i'm really angry...not only on her...my friends...whom i cared about...my family....who i cared most in my life..angry and frustrations is just another type of concern for the other party...only is that is in a bad way...you think a person would care about the other when he/she makes he/she angry...i know the words i said are unsightful..hurting...but...i dun mean it...haiz...anyway....she said i'll still will bring everything out if things happen again...i mean of course...i will...who dun...its the same thing that happened before...get what i mean...its not something new...if you are doing the same thing wrong again....doesnt that mean you are doing it delibrately....first time mistake...people will excuse you or forgive you...2nd time...people will get pissed off...3rd time...you've already break the trust of others...and by saying sorry...is not always on the mouth...which i'd learnt from my past relationship...show it...action speaks louder than words...
i told janet to show it to me...she say...she'll show me...and i told her one last thing....time will prove it...from there...we compromised...but i hoped...and i want to get a good response this time round...i believed in her...i know she can do it...though some people out there...are looking down on her....despised her....not only our friends said that...even my camp mates asked me to give up on her...my own friends...school friends...told me to give up on her as there's no hope in her...i believed....she's not...is just that...people outside is not giving her a chance to prove it...but for me...i am...i know she can do it....i have hope in her...if i as a boyfriend...who dun even give her hope to change...who will...i must believe in her...i've patience...i'll wait....dear...if you happens to see this blog of mine...let me tell you...i'll support you...i have faith in you...lastly....I LOVE YOU!!!
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