Things to cherish in life...once lost...it cannot be recovered...

如果你不爱一个人,请放手. 好让别人有机会爱她.如果你爱的人放弃了你,请放开自己, 好让自己有机会爱别人. 有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.人生中有许多种 .但别让自己为一种伤害. 有些缘分是注定要失去的,有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,爱一个人不一定要拥有,但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她. 男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了. 如果真诚是一种伤害,我选择谎言;如果谎言一种伤害,我选择沉默;如果沉默是一种伤害,我选择离开. 如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出 ,如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束,如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉,好多事情都是后来才看清楚,好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦.

Ip Man ( Eep Mun ) Bruce Lee's Wing Chun Historical GrandMaster....

Donnie Yen's upcoming movie..."IP MAN" ( Eep Mun ) in cantonese....chinese "Ye Wen"....a well-reowned Wing Chun's Historical Grand Master...an also Bruce Lee's master....saw the preview...it was AMAZING, NICE & EXCITING!!! Donnie Yen's movies.....all his fighting styles he had given to his fans and audience...was.....EXCELLENT!!! No words can really expressed his fighting moves who is always changing its styles....this time round...chinese kung fu...Wing Chun...

I dun know much abt Wing Chun...but wat i know was close combat fight.....it can hit you real hard and fast with accuracy....because of this movie..Donnie Yen went on diet....to make this movie more realistic.....the part i saw his fighting part was when a group of karate fighters surrounded him...he fought them and the best part......he continued to hit that person even when he's down on the floor....

I urged everyone or anyone who viewed my blog...PLS PLS PLS.....support the movie....support my IDOL....Donnie Yen....his upcoming movie falls on 18 or 19 Dec 08...DIE DIE MUST WATCH!!! NO REGRETS!!!

sometime, something, somewhere, somehow wrong...

Sometimes i was thinking...why am i like this....in relationship....after the last breakup....i was like thinking...WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH ALL MY R/S????!!!!! (inside my heart la)

haiz...tok abt it..i hurt another's heart deeply...anyway..stop saying such things le...like i said...just wanna work hard for now...earn money first...having a career at my age is more important..

alright...now talk abt movies...."Quarantine"!!!! This movie is like blair witch's project sort of movie....the cameraman runs here and there......if those who cant take dizziness...PLS....i repeat...PLS AVOID that MOVIE!!! is a very nice show to me....so many scary type of movies i've seen...this movie SCARES the SHIT OUT OF ME!!! Just one part nia...is when one of the CDC officer was bitten by the "rabies" infected person where all of them ran up to the one of the room and stay....when the CDC guy says he was bitten.....all the people out there locked him inside the glass panel doors....the SHIT came when the guy hit the glass panel and bit the old man.....THAT WAS THE SHIT I WAS TOKING ABT!!!!! whahhahahahaa

Alright...now tok abt this movie...this movie is all started with a dog which got infected by the high series of fast mutating rabies with serious type of syndromes like after infected...a person will - drools.....tears....flowing non stop...and sound of a like.....ehhhhh.....growl like a dog sound....cant figure that out either....anyway...i'll stop here....find out more......SEE IT FOR YOURSELF!!!! This time is you guys turn to SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF YOU ALL!!!! WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!

Relationship....

Just came back from chilling out with ah lun and peggy..asking me what happened to my relationship....i told them....and we chatted a lot of thing...really a lot....from simple things like r/s to sex and lies...AND VIDEOS!!!! whahahahaaa.....(right peggy????)

After so many things had happened....i really dunno wat happened to me and my relationships...haiz....dunno what to say...but....just an experience i've gained...too many failures...now feeling like there's no faith in my next relationship....scared...afraid....faithless...now it makes me think....earning money and work is more important dan r/s....r/s can wait...but i think i needed rest for now....long term REST!!!

ok...now upload some pics from my granny's Bday....intended to post a few....cos toooooooo many of them....ok...lke i say..."what's yours is your's, we cant force things in"

da da da da da da dafei!!

well...last night just met up with fei fei..who is now not fei at all....slimed down a lot..but looked more man and macho....ah peg was there...jack russel was there too....now my russel looked more and more like zhou dong...haha....he blushes....ah peg getting more and more like a lady...omg...haha...she slimed down a lot also...haha...

had a very very very long talk....now i know what happened between toh bao duan and fei fei...after everything...i cant feel that big man is really hurt which cost him to lose his fat manhood...haha...anyway...fei kor...like i said to you....you'll gain something good in return...

for ah peg leh....we laughed like we used to be....she stil laughs like breathless...haa...slim...maybe more.....open-minded ya?? haha...sorry peg....

russel....my zhou dong...haha..now hair long..last night told him that if my palm covers his mouth he reall looked like jay zhou...no kidding..no joke...haha.....last night was was really a hearty chat for all of us who once i tot i'll lose them forever..but anyway...fei kor is one person i can nv ever forget in life...he is a GOOD MAN!!!

ok...shall stop here for the day...good night everyone...

Friends....Again? Trust a broken TRUST???

Just Read something from a long lost contact friend of mine...she might have changed...but i think...she's just following the crowd....in the end...she realised she found herself back...when she feels a sharp pain by a sudden mind struck in her head....

i dun blamed her for being that way...everybody will go thru that stage either sooner or later...talk later...meeting dafei..

Friends....

my idol....

wow...i got a new job...doing full time...part time stil property...earning both sides of the money...damn tired working til quite late...but still...end of the month i still get my pay...

recently...chat with peggy...like she said....or rather we said....dick...money and car...haha...forget abt it.....now we are still good friends...i guessed??? right peggy?? haha...now...denise....heard abt her story here and there...well...hope you know how where when who what to make amendments to....we are still friends....truly speaking....after what happened to us...previously...i nv bear any grudges on anyone....no matter who's fault is it...mine or who ever so...like i said...when you gain something...you bound to lose something...but when you lose something...you'll gain back something precious or not..

So i hope...denise...do what you need to do....you are a smart, smug looked and confident girl...you know you can do it when sincerity and courage comes...take care denise...all the best...as for peggy....come on....friends...comes and go....still friends...forgive and forget...i always do that except on some people i really dun like...hope we can still can go out for makan sometimes with russel...

What am i doing/thinking???

I was wondering...what the hell was i been doing recently...i really dunch know...bringing my buyer Mr xxx...to view some houses....well...actually got a good catch i can say..15k abv valuation...in AMK...where to get...though the house needs some renovation...i guessed the most 10k?? a total vramp up? but its ok....price is right..area is right...but house....nah...

Been up to some of my sleeves recently...doing somethings recently....cant tell...haha...but..i dunno why....somehow...somewhere feels tired in me....dunno why....sometime was thinking....what and why am i now doing besides properties and properties...anyway...its ok...

Argghghhh...forget it...going to slp soon...night bloggy...

Discipline....i must learn to have one.....

Someone gave me a sticky note...a "Bian Li Tie"....saying..."The Secret Of Joy In Work Is Contained In One Word - EXCELLENCE; To Know How To Do Something Well Is To Enjoy It" "Discipline Is The Bridge Between Goals & Accomplishments".

Well...somehow feel sad when i disappoint them in someways...feel sad, discouraged & unforgiven when "she" said something to me....well...didnt really keep it in heart....smile it with a open heart....if i cant even go thru hers....how am i going to go thru my clients...was feeling better these few days...was thinking....going back to office...how to face them...after such stuff...had happened...but of course i hoped...i must fight for something i want....needed in future....

Ok...thats all for tonight's quote of the day???? haha....all right...good night....signing offffffff......joe loh...

Welcome to MALAYSIA!!!

WOW!!!!! Just came back from malaysia with wei wei, boy boy, ah boy, ah boon and ah qian...haha...(ah boon...dun angry la....i like this name on you...whaha) Bought A LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT of things actually.....dua bao suay bao...whaha.....also just had a seafood feast....delicious indeed....CHILLI CRABS!!! yum yum!!!

Saw the "Restoran Mun" on that pic...yup...that was the one i'm advertising for them free...whahaha....the uncle who ordered food for us was a funny "bulldog face" uncle....just now i was laughing away when he shook his head and his face....starts....TO SHAKE VIGOROUSLY LIKE A BULLDOG SHAKING ITS FACE!!! WHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHA!!!! i just cant stop laughing when i was eating......hehe.....hmm...ate very nice jellllllllllllllllllllllllllly COCONUT!!! Wah Lau Eh....lau chui nua ah...whahaha......"slurp slurp"!!! ;d

Was happy la.....very indeed......a lot of stupid things happened in the car...while all of us cant stop laughing.....after eating....went to a shop selling all the kim xims.....very very very NICE!!!! Even better than those selling at waterloo street, " Si Bei Lor"....nice god figurines.....good handship and craftship....kudos to them....esp those figurines from taiwans...BEST!!! NAP SHOT KALEE POK!!! And ah boy...one day...ONE DAY!!! I PROMISE YOU!!! I'LL TAKE AWAY YOUR FIRST KISS FROM YOU!!! DUN DARE ME!!! GAO DIAO YOU!!!

Tired the whole day le.....really bought a lot of things from malaysia...haha....ok....just celebrated DI DI'S 1 YEARS OLD BIRTHDAY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DI DI!!! I LOVE YOU!!! HAHA!!! Wish you faster grow up...healthy and good boy....

Lastly.....baby wei...i love you...really...from my heart....though i know i sometimes make things difficult for you....play pranks on you....noisy.....funny...humourous.....always singing non stop with all those stupid exaggerating actions that face cannot control...haha...but what i did was to make you happy and feel less boring with me....hope you can accept the way i am....i'm just a crazy man ( in GOOD way of course ) haha...that wanna make your life happy....loving...and of course....TLC....T-ender , L-oving , C-are.....

Believes.......

So many years in my life...finally understood...there's bound to lose and gain....gain and lose...there's some things in life....i've lost...materials....love ones....friends...kinships...trust...hope...memories....but now...finally realised...i've gained more things...kinship....family ties....is more important than anything else in the world...even the money i'm earning now...though is a lump sum...but it does not compared to the ones i had now...time is money...yes...but time is also family...no matter how many bad days you had...how many unlikely things you think it wun happen...in the end did...brooding over relationships....studies....money....the one in the end staying by your side is your family....

Like last few days...had a serious arguement with my dad...was really a serious one..before the night ends....didnt even looked at one another....after i closed my doors...lie on my bed....think back...why should that be happening.....felt bad after what had happened...so the next day....i talked to him instead....to my surprise..he was not even mad at me....haha....he even joked abt me...i was like...."damn it"....haha...but who knows...no feuds between us...even in friendships...in the past i might have lost some precious friends....but its a gain in the end...in experiences....next time such thing will not happen again...mistakes i've learnt in life and will not make it again....but to me....if there's people out there because of greed...fame....to gain his/her needs....eventually....they'll lose many precious things in life without knowing...in the end you'll just like a shell without a soul....EMPTY!!! You'll realise....all your good friends around you will start to leave you....and you'll become more and more lonely than before...trust me....its gonna be the outcome that person gonna face in the future....once you think of finding your friends back...its too late....like what my title says...Believes.....believe in what you do to others....and things will bounce back to you the same thing you did to the others...never ever regret of what you've done and chosen....YOU CHOSE to BELIEVE it.....

In the end...i believed in all of them....my Tua Lee Ya Peh....

Contented.....with my life....

Hey hey hey...i'm back....FOR GOOD!!!! haha....just recently got myself another deal....or should i say...secured "another" deal....well...things had been going well better than i expected....thanks to my shifu(s)...without them...i really dunno how am i going to survive....they helped me a lot....and taught me a lot of things.....and even scolded me...i mean really scold....haha...

Ok...talking abt success....well....soon enough....1/2 years time...haha.....coming....now being with wei wei....i felt contented....the gist of the story....she made me felt....happy...contented...NO PRESSURE AT ALL....<---very important...she's good...very good to me....i felt like i'm really a very fortunate guy...i'm being treated and respected as one....she know what i like and dun...understands me....

ok...i'm slping already...very tired after working so many endless days....24/7 like 48/14...haha...but its fine...got used to it.....money...indeed is very important...but not as important as kinships....lastly....HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSAY DEAREST!!!

Abt Me...

What Lohyewjoe Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Tired til wanna just fall down and toh dit dit.....but it comes along with happiness...

Just got back home....whole day out in amk....doing what i was supposed to....as usual....though is tiring...but...its worth it...went to john's block today...as i was knocking....went to his house for a cup of water...so hot, humid and sweaty today...argghhhh...saw cat in his house....was chatting with john for awhile then continue what i was previously doing...

Went to Chinese Garden with my parents.....mei mei & keng yew....my grandma...little aunt and her hubby & my youngest cousin...chloe...was a happy night at first...BUT...it rains....HEAVILY!!! OMG Tua Li Ya Peh!!! hahahahaha....was carrying mei mei and run....all wet...took out my tees to cover her head....was topless and running like mad....haha...but it was fun afterall....the whole process where all of us run liked mad...haha....took quite a lot of photo with dear wei wei....put the best ones instead...haha...my mom took a photo with dear...she so pai seh...whahaha....

Now her parents treated me very well....vice versa...my parents...treated her good also...actually...i was touched by what dear told me.....she said,"Wherever you go, you do...i'll follow you til the end". i was really happy and glad to hear that...what i felt from her....was really warmth, love, honesty, understanding and trust...all the main points which i was seeking for...really glad to have her by my side as a soul mate....

Serene Shifu's BDAY!!!!

HAHA!!! Serene shifu's BIG DAY!!! well....we went for a celebration last friday....was happy....singing...drinking....dancing...haha....wow...lots of things happened....all these pics were our family members...there are more pics...too much..haha...if people out there who wanna view my pics....friendster or facebook pls....haha....hmm....friendster have more pics....feel free to have a look...haha....alright....were so happy that day....loved that day...alright....cheers to TeamPower....will do well one....up and up...doesnt want to disappoint my shifu(s)....

12 Lotus...

Just got back home not long.....went to dear's house sit for awhile....before that...we went to watch "chap li lian huay" (12 Lotus)...its a sad sad show...abt a life of a child who wants to be a getai singer....trained by her dad...a gambler...in the end....who so called sold her daughter away without looking through the contract dat states the so called in exchange for her daughter for money..becos of money....he didnt even looked at the contract on what it had stated...in the end...ah huay was raped...she was tricked by 715 also...who is ah long....and after the assault....ah huay went crazy....til astroboy who grown into an adult...and the one who took care of ah huay since she went bonkers...it was sad til the end of the show...haiz...her life...

Now at home resting...going to slp le...tomoro gotta work....selling house lo.....will be marketing for $6xx,000. Comm at least $12k....haha...happy man....alright....mid sept one coming up at $5xx,000. Good...like that my dream car....NEW DREAM CAR!!! NISSAN GTR!!! COMING MY WAY!!!!

Was Drunk Last Night.......

Arrrggghhhhh......was drunk last night with wei wei's and family......most of us all "dou"....shit...hate this type of feeling....last night was the chinese ghost festive last day of dinner at dear's house below....bloody hell her 2 brother-in-laws keep asking me drink and drink...drink til i was really drunk....went up to her house rest and slp over at her place....she was so happy...that i slpt over at her place....

Last night also ate alot...and VOMIT ALOT ALSO!!! hahaha....her dad kept asking me to stay over night as he was drunk also...keep mumbling and mumbling...haha..he said since i'm so drunk...might as well stay over night...due to over whelming response....so i did...haha...now back at home...need to rest again...so tired...waiting for my dearest to come to my house later.....now.....SLEEPING TIME!!!!! zzzZZZzzZzzZZzzzz...........

Arrrggghhh.....tiring man.....

In the office right now...waiting to go for dinner...waiting to go amk do my job....behind me was henry...doing his work also...ahhhh.....damn tired man....but its ok for now...tired still have to earn money.....ok...thats all for today....adios...

Sick....

Argh.....sick man..ate too much durians...with wei wei and her family....headache...sore throat...s*** man....dun like this type of feelings at all...wth...yu wen(wei wei's sis) take 3 days mc...so shiok...i dun have mc...stil have to got back to work..

Hmm...my room encountered some "dirty" things...now i know why i'm sick also..and tired...my bro told me all already...is that "thing" made it....well...just dun wanna continue le..."she's" gone now...for good...feeling a bit better though...but the throat stil a bit of soreness...argh....ok...going off to work already...take care everybody....happy "ending soon" chinese ghost festival...

hey hey...i'm back...FOR GOOD!!!

Hi hi everybody....i'm back...this is my girlfriend yu wei....hmm....lets talk abt her now...well...i've known her for 1 yr plus le....very long le...before my previous relationship with another ( past )...she's the one actually i wanna go after...but things...sad to say.....something somewhere happened...so we stopped contacting for that 1 yr plus...i always wanted to contact her...but she changed her contact no. liked i said...something somewhere happened...but in the end...she's the one who found my contact no. from a lady friend of mine...i was shocked and amazed....she was all along looking for me for this period of time...i was touched....

Sometimes when i go to amk hub...i thought i would bump into her....but in vain...but now...she found me and i still like her as previously....so we gave each other a chance to be together....guess what....we are happily together now...really happy like never before....now really got the taste of what true love is....true love is no matter where you are or whatever so....someone out there is waiting for you patiently....no matter who you are with previously...that someone will wait for you true heartedly....well...now liked i know there's a quote i've learnt and finally understand the true meaning, "With Patience And Perseverance, will gain success".

With this quote...i can work towards my goal and even full force working on it....6 mths time...getting a car...well..my car licence is ON THE WAY LO!!!!! hahaha....got a car liao...save money for marriage....she treated me well...understanding....care and concern....most importantly...."TRUST & HONESTY"!!!! She understands on what i am working....and my timing to work over night...most of the nights...she gave me security and trust...so did i gave her...we are really happy together now....she loves me for what i am....and of cos...me too....she has what it takes to be mine..all of it....really...from the bottom of my heart..she dun throw tantrums on me....talk nicely to me...respect me as one....as a man also....she knows the DOs & DONTs in our relationship...she really knows me well....her parents sisters and brother-in-law treat me as one family...her parents like me...especially her dad...like to talk to me...even her nephew...likes me too...haha...guessed i've built the trust and bonding with her family...just came back from her house eating durians with them...wah....ate damn a lot ah....scared "pu jua" already...haha...this is the type of woman i needed in....alright......now....focused on my career...and also not forgetting my dearest "wei wei"...i thanked you for coming into my life...i really will cherish you as one...my one....i love you dear...

My new long awaited love..

Haha....got a girl who really love me i guessed...waited for me a year plus..i think there's really very rare for a few girls who is willing to do that...oh ya...my girl's name is yu wei...hmm....i asked her why she waited for so long....dan she gave me an answer...becos she knows i'm worth it....i was so surprised....so i gave her and myself a chance to be together...she treated me very well...but now she's sick...i'm taking good care of her as well....

I knew her for quite long le....just that really nv contact cos of some problems in between....i couldnt contact her cos she changed her no. also....but she got my no. from john's gf, cat...cat called me said that my girl wants to contact me...so i said ya....dan we contact le....and now the feelings are back....finally you qing ren zhong quan juan shu....haha...i'm really happy with her.....she loves me more than i do...but now i know one thing...willing to wait for a person for so long....is called true love...nobody would do that i said....if that person knows you are worth it...they'll wait....and perseverance will gain what they want...i really love her alot....

happy of the day?

Just got back from work not long...as usual...tired...ha...but its ok la...got used to it actually....tomoro going for viewing...bringing one buyer to view a unit in amk...at evening...going dinner with kath...haiz...kath....is suffering from disorder...cant tel much here...its personal...

Today just went to find joycelyn....pass her some cookies from Famous Amos...knowing that she's hungry...should be...hope that she likes it...haha....met one of her best friends...christina....younger than me by 1 year....i can say was...wow...at her age...she's doing not most of the girls her age is doing...own business...no wonder joycelyn is mixing with her...mix with the right person...to me is that...she's one of the few people i know will succeed in future...she done her hmwk well as in like what's going on in fashion....push carts around the area..which area will do good...you know...really admire such people...dan we chatted quite a lot of stuff....she asked me why am i interested in her...so i told her here and there la....joycelyn liked i said...is really different from the other girls i've known for her age...her thinking was really astonished...i was really amazed...thats why i told joycelyn...i really wanna get to know her better as one...

Hmm....tired le...tomoro working...24/7....go work....but becos of $$$...must do...buy car!!!!

Tired...

Good Morning!!! i haven slp yet...yesterday too tired to write anything here.....well...property is getting interesting each day...really a lot of things to learn...too many to learn...got one on hand...selling soon....hope can market the unit...

not much things to write actually...everyday i'm working working working....like a workaholic man...i only get to shop in between my meals and go makan with my colleagues....after work go "knock knock"...haha..hmm...next week is Dr Dennis Wee's birthday...i was invited to his birthday party at GoodWood Park hotel...not everyone can go...only the 150 top producers and personnel with a table space are invited to....( me )...haha..i'm going of cos....not many people in my company have the chance to go you know...hahaha...sorry....over extreme le...next week sunday is shifu's B.day also...well..intented to celebrate with her family and our colleagues....at her house...well...i need to do some planning....tomoro going to taka with Yves to collect my pants and find a cake for shifu....ok...slping le...good night everybody...

Girl that i'm interested...same sec sch...same crappiness...

Hihi...i'm back...yesterday too late too too late to blog...haha...went out with kath, darryl and joycelyn...darryl and jocelyn i just got to know them yesterday...jocelyn is a girl who works at cineleisure push cart...went shopping with kath...the whole afternoon walked here and there at town...dan finally walked into the push cart...saw jocelyn...hmm..quite bubbly...small size girl...pretty face...haha...adorable la..

Kath bought mascara from her store...dan ask cat to help me get no. ...haha...she dun dare...haha...dan i asked instead...dan she gave me and i gave her mine...well...we made friends...ya...why so late dan got home cos went to movies with her, darryl and kath...watched the mummy...wow...it was nice and funny...ha...and also went to play a catching doll game...with the crane thing to catch dolls and drop it into the hole if you are lucky...haha...i used only $14 to catch 3 medium size plush toys and a small one...gave medium one to kath....one small one and medium to jocelyn and one for my nephew...dan finished watching movies....smsed her...til i got home also smsed her til 5plus in the morning dan i slp...

This afternoon she was to meet me for lunch....silly girl woke up and go back to slp....til we met up for dinner...haha...was hesitating what to eat actually....went into MOS burger...dan came out...went into mac...come out again...finally settled in food court at PS...well...we chatted for very long and know each other better also...such coincidence that she's my junior in sec sch...haha...a lot of things to talk abt...teachers....who and who we hate...we hate the same teacher...haha...she also very crappy one...hmm...think we are getting there soon...feel good when i'm with her...can see she really cares for me....the way she talked...the way her actions is...kinda like her actually..think she had the same feeling for me also...after dinner...brought her to Daiso...that "sua ku" girl nv been to that store BEFORE!!! haha...well...she bought quite a few things....we were playing around and talk cock whenever we go..haha...dan send her to her workplace...meeting her friends...dan she waited with me for cab before she enters to her shop again....meeting her for lunch tomoro also...luckily she worked near me...haha...alright...going to slp soon...well...good night... :)

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!

• Just got back home meeting my friend's father and him...dan meet up with my family late for a national day dinner...haha...last year alone celebrate national day...this year also..haha...but its ok la...i mean....single is stil better....i still got a chance to enjoy singlehood and go out without thinking how others think...and most importantly....can really focus on my career....and enjoy while i can...

Well...this pic which i took just now...was one of the most beautiful fireworks of all....oh ya...before that...went to bugis with joey....to shop...haha...wow...bought a lot of ties and shirts...really a lot...now only lack of a brief case and a belt...tomoro might go for an afternoon shop with friends...so tired....saw lingzi at a new shop...haha...crazy girl...liked long time nv see me b4...grab my neck...my arms...haha...well...we chatted for quite long in her shop....hmm....she's now asking me out for movies when i'm free....i'm always free before 11am and after 11pm...or earliest...10pm..watching a movie should not be a problem la...haha...alright...tired already...go slp le....tired shopping the whole late evening..good night....

My Personal Table and my "NEW" Wallet...

• Hihi...back...yesterday was too tired to blog...so tonight decided to...just got my own table space...my own telephone...and my own drawer...though is small...but its a good working environment...can do my own work happily....talking to henry who's just behind me...or when Yves is also here....all the fighting, squabbling and bickering...i can encounter...haha...its fun though....if i'm not around...Yves will take up my seat and discuss things with henry...cos they are partners...funny partners...haha..

• 2nd pic was me...sitting on my on table space.....damn shiok...but facing my back was shifu's office...wanna chat in msn also very hard....sure nag by them if they happened to come to my table...haha...but nvm...work is work...i still do my work....now the fun starts....the more i work....the more knowledge i gained....haha....was sitting at the office the whole day from 11am til 5-6pm....dan go door knock in amk....now beginning to like this job..i mean "LOVE" this job...haha...

• 3rd pic...was the most wonderful thing...i just got myself a Gucci wallet...new arrival...cost abt $450...nice and nice? haha...dunno how to describe it...its just looked good...though its simple...but the simple is nice...i liked the Gucci logo on the right bottom corner...unique la...hmm...

• Just now went to amk to door knock....well...guess wat...found a owner wanna sell his house who's going overseas for work and he's based on overseas....and guess what again...my mentors and me will be marketing his house..wow...at least my comm ah...3 times my previous regular pay i'm holding...just one house....i decided to work hard and sell / buy / rent more houses or units...to get my first car in 1/2 yrs time...was deciding with my brothers abt which car to get...most of them asked me to get the new honda civic...which was my 2nd choice la...1st choice was my toyota celica...but thinking back...honda is better cos of its engine, looks and spacious...i guessed...i must really work hard for it....for myself...alright...tomoro is our National Day....not going to sentosa...but SHOPPING!!! haha...i'm now being called a workaholic and a shopaholic...workaholic going to reach there soon la....but still a shopaholic...haha..hmm...shop for my shirts / pants and ties...and most important...a brief case....i need that...tomoro evening around 6 will meet michael and karine for farming and door knocking again....will work hard...see....sat sun stil got to work...but if i dun work...no money to eat...haha...alright...shan't talk more...tired liao...go slp and shop tomoro....going with joey i guessed...called her but nv reply...think slp already..nvm...tomoro morning she'll confirm call me one...wake me up as well...bloody...keep asking me to watch movie with her...ask me to stop work and accompany her watch prom night....crazy...i no need to work ah...haha...anyway...tomoro i'm free til evening...so might go watch movie to relieve my stress level...haha...nights.... :)

Business Conference by Peter Tan...

HOME!!! Wow...today was a tiring day for me...almost late for the Conference...luckily Yves woke me up on time....haha...was so slpy during the Conference....before i start talking abt today's Conference on what i've learnt....talk abt the pic on top first...

Yves took a pic of me and shifu ( serene )...i think we are discussing abt something and i forgot what is it...haha...

• 2nd pic...shifu got her ranked No. 1 in Dennis Wee...wooooHooooo....haha...we are so happy and proud of her....being No.1 is not easy....
  
• next pic...thats was Serene & Kelvin...both are partners for 9 yrs...9 YEARS!!!!! i was really fortunate to have them as mentors...Both of them really taught me a lot of things...really a lot....i cant imagine that....look at the happy faces of them....before shifu ( serene ) gets her medal and the cert...she was the only person out of 150 producers....hold a speech...saying..."I'll liked to share this medal with my partner, Kelvin!" After that our team was cheering away....woooohoooo....CHEERS to SHIFUs!!!

• Last pic was us....who went there for the Conference...from left: Henry..(who was also the top 90th producer) congrates to him...next to him is Yves lo....small size hyper active girl...haha..really thanked her for waking me up...after that the 2 shifus....then Pat and me...haha...Pat was asking me...why am i standing so far from her...scared i'll be eaten by her is it...haha...i was laughing away then....

• After that...tea break before Peter Tan's talk starts...he was one of the president in Prudential Insurance....talking abt Recurrent your million dollars...wow...i was amazed by his speech.....it really convinces me a lot...talking abt how should a businessman thinks...actions this and that...a lot...well i cant possibly tell all...selfish abit.....kepp to myself to improve and know what i want....my PARADIZM....haha...alright....this sat going to sentosa with kath and her gf....wooo...can get to know her...haha...hmm....henry and Yves is coming along also.....can play volleyball liao lo...now very very interested in beach volleyball....haha....can get to know other people also...who wants to challege or play along with us.....Sentosa...here i come!!!!

Busy....busy....VERY BUSY!!!!

Just got back from work not long...finished late dinner....wow...day by day...more and more tired...maybe still haven got used to new environment....but its ok...for car...my dream car ''celica" here i come...!!!

Tomoro having i think so called business conference thing at RELC Intercontinental Hotel....going to meet Yves ( 1STOP = yee ting ) i supposed this is how i spell her name right...if not she's gonna get her volleyballs and smash me...haha....meeting her at Orchard mrt...will be taking a cab there together....tomoro is a big day for shifu ( serene ) and hendry...shifu getting top meaning No. 1 in DennisWee last month...getting her medal on stage...so proud of her and fortunate being my mentor...as for hendry....top 150 producer....No.90 i think...well...shifu keep pushing me to do well...every now and then......pressure me here and there....but i can take the pressure....work for my dreams and goals...i must do it..

I really hope i can be someone up there others will looked upon...haha....this day will come...i know it will..my shifu keep telling me...everyday also tel me....when i'm there...got car got money..you think girls wun come to you huh..i was liked..."huh...why they kept telling me all this?" haha....they said...once i have all these...i'll be like a magnet to attract girls...now i've the looks already enough...combine the other 2....tian xia wu di...i was liked...pai seh man...haha...they everytime say my looks was an advantage...plus i know how to talk...win half the battle already...the other half is my career...i was liked ya...i must do it fast and quick...prove to myself..

Alright...gonna slp le...if not...tomoro sure late and make Yves wait for me.....good nite....my time will come....will prove it....time will prove everything anything with patience and perseverance that gain success in me...

Shopping!!!

Just came back from Orchard...was with Sharon...meet her in the afternoon...waiting for her bus to arrive...damn long sia...tel me coming...but it took me 15mins to wait for her...argh...finally she came..told me abt her job interview...dan i told her she can make it one la...so after that went for lunch together...she's just like a siao cha bor...talk also must talk louder...make fun of people's name...wah lau eh...cannot tahan...so pai seh...eat there also hide face and eat...keep disturbing me...eat also cannot eat peacefully...haha...

Dan go far east shop with her...went into a shop with japanese clothings...damn ex......one simple dress...tube dress, blue in colour with black heart shape like all over the dress...cost $129...i was liked..."OMG"...siao ah...very plain dress...after trying...went past a hair extension shop...one strand of hair $1...it was cheap i guessed...but in the end she have to pay $42....she did 42 of them...but i must say...not bad...done by the china girls( old ones ) haha...wait for very long sia...half an hour sitting down there for her to finish her hair..

After that...went to taka....as we walked...she bit me here and there...pinch and spank my butt...pinch my chest...torturing man...really liked siao cha bor...everytime have to "siam" her...when she came near me...funny girl la i must say...but not used to it...cos i'm not like her ma...she more like wanna play...kept asking her to watch her "xing xiang and yi tai" haha...but she'll forget once she started...crazy girl...hold me arms like her boyfriend like that...happy happy hold...but just friends la...haha...let her hold lo...free one ma...haha...friends nia...hehe...this time she followed me....went to Gucci bouquet..i told her i wanted to buy a wallet....then she chose for me one...a black one with Gucci logo on it....i forgot to snap it down...what a waste...damn...it was nice...w/o coin pouch....small and slim...with lots of card holders...nice...unique...only $450....affordable...gonna get it next month...haha....maybe going to ask kath along with me...my shopping buddy...haha...wow...tiring day...really...ok...thats all for tonight...go rest, bathe and slping soon...tomorrow full rush on WORK!!!! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!

Sentosa...and new found friends...

Arghhhhhh.....just got back from sentosa....10.30am reach there with friends....dan 1pm meet more friends....and more friends....got to know a lot of friends frm friend's intro....haha...got to know this girl...sharon...a very crazy 19 yr old girl...but well....she's cute in the sense....very sampat....so long never see such girl already...haha....hmm...very active...chatty...crazy girl...no wonder my friends call her "siao cha bor"...really suits her character...haha...very very very skinny girl..just got to know her...but she is liked known me for long...put sand on my head...my butt line...my body...use towel to whip me...liked i knew her for long....haha...but the fun is there...toooooooo friendly....

After that saw my ex camp mate, ZY....with his friends..coming along to sentosa play volleyball...well..we played quite awhile...under the hot scorching sun...( damn it )...but the feling is nice...dan join one of my girlfriend's group to meet up other friends...was chatting with yves...well...she got her own commitment indeed..one of the rare species i can say for a girl...well...i really dunno how to explain...but i rarely see girls with such thinking and mentally to do her stuff...but she's a nice person after all...maybe i've known her for long....so i dunno how she is...but today just chatted with her...so i think...she is not bad lo....

After sentosa...went to bugis with ZY, sharon and company...for makan and later that to bugis street....sharon wants to get her hair extended...like i said...siao cha bor...nothing better to do...haha...but not bad la for the after effect...went to arcade with ZY and darryl...played quite a lot of games...haha..was fun...after that met up with sharon and the girls...well...we clicked well..all of us indeed....sharon kept disturbing in the car...really cant take it...argh....haha...

ok...now the whole body is red....scorching hot and burnt...can smell it...haha....wow...today was a fantastic day for me...got to know a lot of friends...really....haha....ok...good nite...gotta go bathe slp and rest....tidok time....tidok in malay is sleep...haha...nite...

Tiring day...but it comes with a understanding why i'm tired...

Well...today was a tiring day....morning went to gym....but was late 1/2 hr making my friend waiting for me...haha...everytime i meet her i'm late...well...i overslpt actually...very tired...last night 4plus dan slp....doing some research on my worksite..

Working outside now is really a tiring job...well....is totally diff from the army...outside is competative...when you can see a lot of pple busy doing their stuff...maybe i'm stil have not got used to it...now trying to....and will succeed when time comes.....i believed and i know i can do it..like my mentor said...yes...you learn slowly...but fly first...and learn at the same time..well...things start to come in my mind knowing what i want in life...i find this quote is nice and meaningful from my mentor...."yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift...thats why it is called a present...enjoy it while you can...if not..it'll end" i was liked...wow...good quote to follow...so i decided....work hard...and also if i have time play hard...alright...should end here now....going to watch the dark knight with my buddy nick...

My New Life...My New Career....My New Chapter...

WOW!!! After 4 years in army...finally can see my own PINK I/C!!! haha...hmmm...miss "him" so much....hmmm...currently been busy at work...so now is the time to write something in...what have i been doing recently...wake up at 10am...go to work at 11plus...view houses til 10plus 11...12am plus reach home...been busy really...wow...damn tired these few days...well..now officially "SINGLE"!!! i guessed there are people out there laughing at me..this that...but i dun mind...haha...hmmm...i know i've said hurtful words to "P"...you...yes...and "D"...yes you..i felt sorry...guessed i was confused at that times...really confused...blamed me...i just wanna say sorry to you girls...though sorry does not help...but with my deepest heart...i'm sincerely saying sorry to you girls...i dun wished to make enemies with you...but if you girls still hate me like one...i have no choice...its ok...what past is the past...cannot bring back..just have to face forward and walk the path once again...i learnt one thing...forgive and forget...well...i still have other friends and colleagues around me...supporting me of what i do....i dun mind having friends like you girls once again...but if you girls still hate me...i really cannot stop you from doing so...just to really deeply apologized to you girls once again whatever i did to you so hurting... :)

For me now...being single is the right way...should concentrate on my career...starting a relationship was wrong in the first place...totally wrong...spoiling all my bloody moods in everything...but now...i felt better....with family and supporting and understanding friends...i'll work towards my goal...to whom it may concern....hope your life with him will make you think twice...really..now i really treat you as friend category...as you know...really no more feelings for you anymore...there's much more other better and important things to do dan remembering or thinking of you...not worth it at all...thanked god (ah peh) you left me..i really feel much better..much much better...without you in my life...i feel no regrets at all...just feeling disappointed the way you are now...making yourself like....... :) ok...going to slp now...tomoro stil have got to work...good night to all..

Last day At Work In The Army....

hahahaha.....last day at work lo!!!!! ORD LO!!!! wow....after 4 straight years...in the army...finally as a civilian...on Aug 1st taking pink IC...but not happy at all...tot my girl will celebrate the day with me as promised....but no....haiz....tot is a happy day to celebrate with her....she told me she will bring me for a dinner...somewhere....but i think...no more le....haiz...life without her there's no colours to my life...nobody to bicker with...nobody to sweet talk with...

Anyway...will wait for her to come back to my warm arms...my life...hoping the best for her in her career...do well ok darling....i know you can do it....in the office there's bound to have back stabbers...and people to bad mouth you...as long as what you did is clear....nothing can hurt you....i will be there for you no matter what.... :)

Hopes....

Wow....another day had past....hmmm....dunno when baby will come back to my side....heard that aug 1st she's going to Genting with her colleagues...but on Aug 1st is the Chinese Ghost Festival first day...dun wanna let her go but dunno she'll listen anot...well...we chinese believed in this sort of occasions....

Hmmm...ya...just got myself a HTC Diamond...this phone i can say...one word "GREAT"!!! it has got a FloTouch function for easy access to all things..very convenient...and it has got a new game which i find it quite interesting....is a metal ball game...how you control it....is like holding the phone flat with your 2 thumbs and index fingers playing with it....haha...its nice...really....camera....very good...3G....very clear...overall....GOOD!

Got my girl a LG viewty...not bad either...its a normal PDA phone...good enough for her..haha....but the sound system is much better than HTC Diamond...louder, clearer...but the bad thing is...the battery is using up quite fast....

Well...we've got better....hope to get back soon into each other's arms once again and nv let go...willing to walk the journey with her til the end...with and without her in my life there's a lot of difference....moreover....i feel that she'd become part of our family...everyone likes her...esp my nephews and niece...whenever i got home...they'll asked where's "niong niong"? haha...i remembered my big nephew asked me one thing..."pah pah...you want niong niong to come back anot"? i found it funny when a 3 year old kiddo would ask me this question....of cos i said yes....dan he says..."Ask her come back la, STUPID"! i was like laughing non stop for 5 mins...wow...i was amazed...how come a 3 year old kiddo would say such stuff...hahahahai guessed the family misses you baby...you became part of us.... :) hope you come back soon...love ya...

waiting patiently...

After yesterday's incident....a lot of hooo haaaa....well...i have to admit...there's things i've done wrong..which i shouldn't have done...til now...dunno what she's thinking...really...but i'm doing my best to change for the better...wun be doing things in foolishness already...

Learnt my lesson...everytime i asked her Qs abt her and "R"...she'll tell me...what happen if i had a boyfriend...what happen if she's with him....do you know....how sad i was when she said this...but buliding up my courage...i'll say...i'll wait for her...no matter what...patience and perseverance....i guessed...plus sincerity and honesty with love...i want her back by my side...but it seems that...i dun even get a chance to meet her...seeing her face...every single day she's busy...but the only thing is still there is that i still get to listen to her voice...at least better than nothing..hoping for a day out with her...but it seems that the whole week she's busy...sometimes i feel that she's avoiding me...when i asked her out...she's says she's not free...well...i think i'm in the waiting list i guessed...everyday see her going out with "R" and colleagues...makes me feel uneasy...is like "R" is getting more chances and time with her than me....sad-ed...

Now is that...i wanted to savage this relationship...and turned over a new life with her...giving her a good comfortable shoulder to rely and cry on...smile always when she's with me...i know for her and our future...i can make it and be someone up there others look upon...and let others know that...she's not that type others will think she is...i trust and believe her....in everyway...

p.s. i still miss you a lot baby...give us a chance to start all over again....remember the song- The Past??? inside the lyrics....it says...there's one thing we have not do...is to "Forgive & Forget"...what past is the past...we shall not bring it up again... i still love you...hope one day you'll come back to my warm comfortable arms...i'll wait...

smiles....

Another day had past...day by day...i'm missing her more...but i believed....patience and perseverance...will get what i want....will succeed one day...day by day also...my ORD date is getting near...wow....wonderful....as a civilian...can celebrate National Day as one civilian...haha...

Hmmm...planning for September trip to bangkok....wanna bring her go....but dunno whether she free anot...hope so...though hong kong trip is cancelled...is not cancel i mean...postpone to a further date.......maybe near dec....but dunno whether is it a monsoon season...

Just got to know that her sales is not so good this month....stil have 9 days left to hit her target which was far away...hope she can do it with the help of ah peh...and me....supporting her by her side...giving her moral support and financial support when she needed one...hmmm...lets not say "when" she needed one...i should say..."all the while" and i'm there for her...seeing her so down in luck makes me down also....who would want to see his love one down with such luck...dun worry...she'll pick up fast for her coming 9 days sales...know she can do it..."hope" that "R" will help her since he "LIKES" her...hmph!!!!!! bloody hell...thinking of him...makes me feel uneasy....haha...anyway...its a good way to feel jealous because i stil loves her...i mean is part of love...well...time will prove my love for her continues and stronger....lastly.....i know you dun want me to call you baby...but in my heart....you stands in my heart....baby...all the best...i'll wait for your returns...no one indeed can replace you in my heart...NO ONE...i love you... :)

Dream...

Last night....dreamt of my girl pregnant with my child again...really very real...but i told her about the dream...she told me...even if its true...she wun wanna come back to me...how sad can that be...really missing her a lot....have not been eating the whole day...keep thinking of her in my mind....dunno what i must or do i have to do to have her back at my side....feel like holding her tight right now...god...pls help me...i'm willing to help myself...but..i need guidance along the way.....pls...help me...

Willing to change for the better...for you and for me...

Every night i slp...i'll automatically wake up around 2-3am...sudden wake up call...having nightmares every night...wheni woke up...my mind is full of her faces...with other guys...esp R..feeling very very sad and down...no mood to eat...no mood to slp....smoking in fact more and more..when she's around...i nv cherish her...now thats she gone....i then realised....she's the one i love...

Buddha's teaching...everybody deserved chances to everyone's wrong doings...as long as the person is willing to change...for the better....he deserved the chance for turning over a new life...i know my temper is bad...mouth needless to say...worst..whenever i'm angry...i'll say things that hurt pple's heart....now i know why...she left me....it really hurts...even though is a 5 month r/s....but it feels more than 7yrs....i really dunno what do i have to do to ask her back...i'm now just doing my best...my very best to ask her back...WILL NV GIVE UP!!! Like what li ah peh told me...ask me to "fan xing of what i've done to her"..."fan xing means think back"...i really hope she'll give me a chance of making me realising....that she's worth it...

Really feel jealous when she's in such good terms with R...really...but i dun blamed her...he was there for her when we quarrelled...i hope if we got back together...i'll be the man for her and be there for her whenever she needed me.....if we got back...i would really wanna tell her...how much i miss her...love her....nv really been so down before...really wanted her back...to janet's decreased mom-"auntie...i hope...no matter where your daughter is or are...i'm willing to take good care of her all my life...nv ever vent frustration on her unneccessarily...treat her with love and care..."

That night when i stayed over at her house...haiz.....wounds all over her lower limbs...coughing and coughing..that day before i slp..i asked for permission to hug her...but in the end...i hugged her...the feeling was good...and gave her a goodnight kiss on her forehead....i really love that feeling of kissing her and padding her while she cant slp...got used of slping side by side with her...feeling uneasy without her by my side...anything can be compromised...not that i'm flirting outside and get caught by her....is just that...my temper is not good...is i flirt with other girls...i deserved for the punishment i'm serving now....but as i said....temper can be changed....i'm going all out for her....she deserved good treatments from me now on....


Always loving you...baby...


guilty joe

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Today is a very lonely day...feel so lonely the first time ever...slpt alone last night..took her pillow which i nv hold before....so nice to hug...like hugging her...she always tries to let me smell it...but i run away...just to make fun of her saying its smelly... :) but....really...nv been so lonely before...though sometimes she came home late...but...there's stil someone beside me slping where i feel ease and cosy....when she's here...i dun cherish her...now that she's gone...dan realised...she was there for me...when i needed her...

First time hug her pillow...first time knockout like her always does when she slp beside me hugging her pillow...the pillow was like..."WOW"..really can knockout in secs....no joke..haha...i know i was wrong to say all the hurting words to her...broke her heart..i know she wanted to prove it to me that she can make...its just that...i have the mentally that she cant do it...but i didnt gave her the chance to do it...so..its my fault....after my ex...she's the girl i love...dunno why...but...now that i feel...she planted a love seed in me...the roots are kinda deep now..she's not that bad afterall...just playful...like a kid.. ;)

Dunno why a peh wanna talk to us..eric told me...he wanted to talked to us...ah peh said before..we will have a kid together which he predicted...we'll get married...i really dunno...i know i must change my temper this time to win her back...as i write now...i feel sad, down and wanna cry...ha...she's the next woman can make me feel this way...which i only had that type of feeling at my ex...

Last night went out with friends whom i've nv seen for so long...went to eat with them...feeling funny when i see girls...no mood to eat...joke with expressionless...no eye contacts....is like....my heart is still thinking of her....i'm not having that so much fun....sent her roses this afternoon..dunno she'll be touched...after together for so long...nv send her any flowers or did any romantic stuff to her....felt so sorry to her...being with me for so long....nv did anything romantic to her...now i also must change for the sake of our relationship...lastly...i miss you baby...dearly..

Back on track....

Hi hi...i'm back...on track as stated above....well...we( me & janet )..had sorted our problems...( hoped so )...there's a lot disagreements and arguments etc...she did things to spike me...as i scolded her using hurting words on her..well...what a weekend indeed....it didnt stop me from quarreling with her whenever i called her to settle our problems..well...to me...she just a young lady with little girl's mind who's just playful...heard her stories..her mom( decreased ) was very strict to her around 19-20 years old...only that when her parents were divorced...then her freedom starts...i know how she feels...i've been thru her stage..while i was her age...yes indeed...i was playful as well...but i mean...thats very wrong of her to use her freedom unwisely..

Everybody has their own freedom...i agreed...but use it for your own good...wisely..who wants to control who's freedom...nobody wants it...true enough...but my intentions for her is that her health...during the period when i'm not around..she's out everyday/ night..around 2plus midnight reached home...i'm just worried about her health...yes she drinks..but little bit...her looks is getting pale everyday i sees her..not hydrating herself...it hurts to see her like this...no boyfriend/girlfriend likes to see his/her spouse getting weak everyday..when a body system is going bad...you wont feel it...only your body does without your knowing...

She told me....i controlled her too much...but...have she thought of...why am i like this...why am i like that...i told her...whatever i do or did...is for her own good...i'll nv harm her...not even a single bit of intention at the back of my mind..dunno really will she appreciate what i'd done for her...i know when i'm angry.....all the frustrating words/sentences will come out....i only do that when i'm really angry...not only on her...my friends...whom i cared about...my family....who i cared most in my life..angry and frustrations is just another type of concern for the other party...only is that is in a bad way...you think a person would care about the other when he/she makes he/she angry...i know the words i said are unsightful..hurting...but...i dun mean it...haiz...anyway....she said i'll still will bring everything out if things happen again...i mean of course...i will...who dun...its the same thing that happened before...get what i mean...its not something new...if you are doing the same thing wrong again....doesnt that mean you are doing it delibrately....first time mistake...people will excuse you or forgive you...2nd time...people will get pissed off...3rd time...you've already break the trust of others...and by saying sorry...is not always on the mouth...which i'd learnt from my past relationship...show it...action speaks louder than words...
i told janet to show it to me...she say...she'll show me...and i told her one last thing....time will prove it...from there...we compromised...but i hoped...and i want to get a good response this time round...i believed in her...i know she can do it...though some people out there...are looking down on her....despised her....not only our friends said that...even my camp mates asked me to give up on her...my own friends...school friends...told me to give up on her as there's no hope in her...i believed....she's not...is just that...people outside is not giving her a chance to prove it...but for me...i am...i know she can do it....i have hope in her...if i as a boyfriend...who dun even give her hope to change...who will...i must believe in her...i've patience...i'll wait....dear...if you happens to see this blog of mine...let me tell you...i'll support you...i have faith in you...lastly....I LOVE YOU!!!

Something...someone hurts.....

today...02/07/2008...staying in camp for f**king 7 days...well...dun wish to say it out...just damn sway...everything to me now like breaks down...my life...my relationship...so long nv really touch my blog...nv tel others abt it..kept it to myself..sometimes hope someone/ somebody reads or dun read my blog...either one..

relationship - really have been suffering and miserable for 5 months...Janet ( my gf ), really doesnt understands me at all....all she cares was only having fun with her so-called "new found trusted colleagues or friends"....does she really care abt me...nowadays every night...almost...she said she got outing...pubbing...clubbing with her friends...nv even bother to call while she's having her fun...i've been into such miserable life when i needed someone...but she didnt..i wanted someone there before bedtime and have a good night chat...but...i just dun got to get it...is it very hard for someone to be there for me...when i'm really down....when i'm down...she's out there having here fun...its suffering you know that...very "gek xim and cheng xim"...haiz...feel like an empty shell soul-less...dunno where i'm going....like being blown by the wind in all different directions...lost...this is how i feel...

Hope someone out there really help me...hope my tua li ah peh will know how i feel...ah pehs' they all...whenever they possess my bro as he's a medium ( ki tong )...they'll come up and help us settle our problems...they are always there for us( family )...i really really feel better when i see him....he'll always give us very good solutions...to overcome our obstacles...but sometimes god dun lead our ways out...or even help us most of the times...we must help ourselves...but now...i'm really lost...really...dunno wat to do...i think...thats all for today...thats all....nights...